Lockdown in Italy, My Experience & Thoughts

As I write this post today, I pause and reflect on the words I’m writing the title …LOCKDOWN ….ITALY …MY ….EXPERIENCE …very sobering thoughts come flooding to my mind as I give deep thought to this situation and what’s happening here in Italy and quickly spreading worldwide!  LOCKDOWN….MY EXPERIENCE…never thought I’d say those words in a sentence together, but who really ever would, right? Especially in the sense of a worldwide pandemic of the Corona Virus that’s day by day essentially shutting down the world.

(Below I included phots of some shots around the area where we live)

Cinque Terre

I speak for myself but my situation is just one of millions , and there are many many more way worse off.  So , I write not in a spirit of complaint but pure reflection while collecting pieces of events that’s happened over the last month and piecing it all together. This all started for us here the second week of February. We’re now mid March and will be on lockdown til at least Aril 3rd. Everything happened so fast. I got the immediate call from my job (the 5 star prestigious hotel that I always kept as my “secure job”, the “well-paying job” that I didn’t want to let go of) letting me know I would no longer be needed at this time because the seemingly impossible happened. They went from months out of bookings to overnight solid cancellations. We weren’t even fully aware of the repercussions that were about to hit but we knew this was big. But life as I had known already began to change.

From there it was an unravelling of events of shut downs, closures, quarantine with people being brought their food by state officials and not even allowed to go into their own yards! Heavy restrictions were placed as well here in La Spezia. It was then that I started to get this constant knot in my throat and the sensation of being hand-punched in my stomach. I began to feel claustrophobic and anxiety and we weren’t even on lockdown as a nation yet.

Porto Venere

Porto Venere

The feeling came from the realization of just how far I as from my family, being separated by a vast ocean, borders were slowly tightening up, flights were being limited by the day, and alas Trump’s big announcement of shutting down the flights to and from Europe for thirty days and that just did me in. I felt like I couldn’t breathe. ‘What if my family needs me?’ ‘What if I need my family, WANT my family near?’ Suddenly I had all the urge in the world to be able to step foot on familiar ground in my home, my country. To be clear, up to this point I have felt like Italy was my home and preferred to be here. The mind plays tricks on you when you suddenly feel something taken away from you and panic sets in.

These were just some of the thoughts racing through my head. How did I react to all the closures? I ran to the big supermarket in town IPERCOOP in hopes of stocking up, only to find every parking spot in view taken, double parked. Apparently everyone had the same idea. Well, the double parking thing is just daily life in Italy (haha) if you’ve ever been here you know what I mean!

Calice al Cornoviglio

Calice al Cornoviglio

I enter the store and you know that feeling when you’re just hit with a wall of peoples energy whether positive or negative you can’t help but feel it? (You definitely know it by now if you’re looking for toilet paper in the states! winky face) Yeah that’s what hit me, knocked me over almost from all the hysteria and panic in the air. I looked around and saw Costco size carts filled with groceries to the brim, empty shelves. Once again the knot coming in my throat and the anxiety level rising, it can be quite challenging to control in these situations. I get my goods and race out of there. Thankfully my favorite farmer down the road from us has stayed open so I continue to avoid hysteria ridden stores, which are one of the very few things open at the moment.

The flip side of all this is when I stop to think about it, as scary as it all has been now that the full blown lockdown has arrived, police are controlling the streets making sure people remain home, or stop passers-by to ask for their certification to be out, there’s an underlying peace all around. (Not for the poor people suffering from the Corona virus and my thoughts and prayers go out to them and their families). But in a strange way, I didn’t realize how much I needed this break, this forced rest from the rat race of life and all its concerns, this forced slowing down, not going to work or to have to be anywhere or able to go anywhere. I wish that it didn’t have to be under these terrible circumstances and that people weren’t suffering and losing lives through it all.

I guess what I’m saying is as much as I fought accepting the reality of what was coming but now that it’s here, that fact that I’m powerless to do anything but sit in my tiny house, not have company other than my husband of course, it’s forcing me to focus on the present, the little gleams of positivity amongst all this uncertainty and sadness, to focus on family, strengthening friendship bonds by Skype and what’s app group conversations and of course the telephone, with lots of time dedicated to prayer and meditation.

Lerici

Yes I have angst and concerns but I can do nothing to change this situation and most parts of the world are in this together, it’s like I’ve completely surrendered. In stead of sitting here in a state of panic over this very tragic situation, I’m trying to find growth and strength in it and make the time on lockdown to work to my advantage.  Not simply spending the time anxiously worrying, or binge watching on TV to make time pass but to learn the art of mindfulness, to live in the present moment, and build true appreciation even for the seemingly little things that I’m blessed to have. Some ideas of how to pass time on lockdown: Start a new hobby, enjoy your downtown time and take advantage of it, read a book, play board games with your family, start up that new business idea you’ve been thinking about, enjoy the well-needed rest you now have time for.

This situation is changing my perspective, strengthening my faith, and I’m learning to take one day at a time and enjoy the beauty, whatever little beauty at times there may seem to be. As I hear about what’s happening back home in the states, my hope is that that amidst the panic and hysteria some of these thoughts may help you to pass this time with some positivity and hope the way it has helped me.

I hope you enjoy this blogpost and I’d love to know where YOU are from as you read this and what’s the situation looking where you are, and how are you handling it.

 

 

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14 Comments

  1. Marina on March 19, 2020 at 4:51 pm

    I enjoyed hearing your perspective. I’m hoping mine will change to the positive soon.
    Thanks for sharing.

    • Christine on March 20, 2020 at 4:37 am

      Thank you for your comment I appreciate it. It’s definitely not easy. It takes effort focusing on the positive, but the more you do it it’s like training a muscle the easier it gets!I wish you the best. Stay well! Xo

  2. Donna on March 19, 2020 at 10:12 pm

    Very well written Christine. My heart goes out to you and your hubby, and friends there as well. In California, it was just announced today the state is now on lockdown. Since my family has been self quarantining with the cold we caught, I’m already feeling a bit sur stir crazy. But we’ll be ok. We just have to follow direction and keep busy right? Thank you for sharing, letting us know how you’re doing, and your thoughts and insights. ♥️

    • Christine on March 20, 2020 at 4:39 am

      Thank you so much Donna! Yes I just heard the news from my family. You’re definitely doing the right thing self quarantining for the safety of others, we all appreciate that! Hang in there, our thoughts and prayers are with you all!Xo

  3. Sarah on March 20, 2020 at 5:54 am

    Thank you for your beautiful post. This made me feel a lot better this morning. Xo

    • Christine on March 21, 2020 at 2:29 am

      Hi Sarah, oh I’m so happy bto hear that! That’s my hope in sharing this with you! Sending you lots of love Xo

  4. Renée on March 20, 2020 at 12:07 pm

    Thanks for the honest report. We are learning to look at only each day, as Matthew 6 instructed us. This experience has made it easier. We now have the real life experience of not knowing what tomorrow will be. We are happy to have Jehovah’s organization to continue to shepherd and feed us.

    • Christine on March 21, 2020 at 2:44 am

      Hi Renée, thanks so much for sharing your thoughts here! I totally agree, we can definitely say we’ve experienced it first hand now!It sure helps us in taking one day at a time with its anxieties and not getting overwhelmed by or worked into a panic overthinking what could happen tomorrow.This in itself is such an important lesson I’m definitely learning from this. Send you lots of love. Xo

  5. Andrea Andrews on March 20, 2020 at 3:41 pm

    Italy is my home away from home. I live in LA but once lived in Milano for extended periods of time over 10 years. I’m lying on my bed with my dog while husband works, my son is trying to buy weight equipment and my daughter is surfing funny things on Instagram. I was also working but the internet is dragging with over usage everywhere so I gave it a break. Thanks for sharing your story and your beautiful photos. It inspired me to breathe, remember some incredible times in that stunning country and most importantly reflect how blessed my life is. How precious life is. And how less can be more. Stay safe. ❤️

    • Christine on March 21, 2020 at 2:36 am

      Hello Andrea, thank you so much. I’m from LA as well! This is indeed a spectacular country and you no doubt have incredible memories to reflect upon in your down time being on lockdown. I’m so happy to hear this post moved you such a way, that’s exactly why I felt compelled to share it. I wish you well during this difficult time. Xo

  6. Donna M Monaco on March 21, 2020 at 7:41 am

    Beautifully written and expressed. I really feel for you and Dany. Love you

  7. Jim on March 21, 2020 at 10:52 am

    A very thoughtful and well written perspective offered from a corner of the world whose experience we would all do well to take heed from. I especially empathize with your feelings of powerlessness and appreciate your efforts to make peace with our current reality. Speaking for myself I’ve equated these feelings with what it feels like during an earthquake “there is no place to hide”. You do what you can and take charge of those things within your grasp.

    In short Christine thank you for your thoughts from LockDown in Italy.

    Much appreciated

    • Christine on March 21, 2020 at 12:46 pm

      Thank you Jim for your comment, yes having lived through a huge earthquake I agree with you on your equating the circumstances together. We can only control our response to what happens around us we can’t always change what’s happening. And that is important to focus on right now when everything seems so out of control. So thank you for sharing that!

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